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I think I have a cold. Ugh. This means meme-time, naturally. Ahem:

10 Things About Myself Meme

From shutterbug12, who gave me the temperamental letter J. Comment and I'll give you a letter of your very own!

1. Jittery: First and foremost. I've been incredibly conscientious for as long as I can remember, never wanting anyone to think badly of me or misjudge me. Which is dumb, because, hay guize, we're all speshul and what other people think shouldn't matter, etc. But something, subconsciously or not, is at the source of all my second-guessing and it's been there forever. Being this tense all the time ain't easy, f'real.

2. Jealous: I blame this on my crazy goal to actually be good at something instead of middle-of-the-road. Yes, a big part of me is still a thirteen-year-old goth kid. Anyone who does anything a zillion better than me has probably been on the receiving end of this, whether they know it or not. Most likely not, since it's not the kind of think I want to, like, publicize (see #1). Only I totally just did and now everyone in fandomland will lose whatever respect that happen to have lying around for me. Damn it. However, most of the time, I simmer down to respectable admiration as opposed to forever seething with sizzling flames of envy. I just kind of wish I could like something really good from the start, without feeling compelled to comapre myself to it.

3. Julie Taymor: Is an utter genius. Her work is gorgeous and surreal and absolutely enthralling. I cannot stress this enough. Her design concepts just floor me. As a theatre kid, I tend to get torn between "Holy Moses, I'm not worthy!" and "I WANT TO BE A PART OF THINGS LIKE THIS ZOMG."

4. Jewish mother: Leaving aside the fact that I'm not Jewish and hate to cook, I've gotten the impression over the years that my shoulders are awesome crying-on places. And, admittedly, I'm a soppy git who believes that just listening to someone can make them feel better, so I do it a lot. And, honestly? A lot of people out there are really lousy listeners.

5. Jester: I can often be found contributing to a given conversation with a dubiously placed remark that sounded a hell of a lot funnier in my head. I'm smooth like that. But my friends get the deadpan humor thing, so fortunately there hasn't been a misunderstanding in a while. I made fun of the Pope in front of my former Catholic schoolboy of a boss today, which I belatedly realized might not have been the smartest thing I'd ever done, but he's apparently down with Pope-mocking.

6. Jejunator: I think this is a really fun word in general. Sometimes I fail at feeding myself. One of those Real Life things that just hasn't stuck yet.

7. Jones, LeRoi: I took a class on experimental theatre once, got really into this guy, and totally tore Dutchman apart for a few blissful term papers.

8. Journalist: Well, duh. (Oh, be quiet; J is a tricky letter.) I kept paper diaries as a kid, got into the online thing little by little in my late teens, and have been writing steadily in this particular LJ for several months now. Which is interesting, since it's the first time I've ever updated a fic journal with things that aren't just straight-up fic. Blame it on the House fandom for sucking me in.

9. Judicious: Diplomacy is underrated. I try not to draw any conclusions without stopping to at least glance at the other viewpoints involved.

10. Jocoserious: Again--dry, off-kilter humor sometimes gets me into trouble, but I still think it's the best kind.

...and in conclusion, this meme has made me sound really petty and whiny. Erk. I have a cold. Yes.